I feel like I’ve been absent from our blog lately.  Things have been going on, things have been busy.  Meaghan has had lots of good stuff to share on Tale of Two Teachers in the past week, so a shout out to her for taking on our “blog duties” for the past little while.

During the past few weeks I’ve been in a pretty deep, reflective state.  Have you ever had the experience where you think all is well in your world and you couldn’t possibly be wanting of anything? Well, that was me until four weeks ago.  Now, let me assure you, nothing bad is happening! (I just reread this sentence and it kind of sounds like I’m preparing you to receive some bad news…sorry to disappoint, but no bad news here!) I guess the short story is that I’m starting to figure out the WHY part of my current and constant question: WHAT AM I DOING AS A TEACHER IN THIS CLASS!?  Yes, you read that correctly…I’m figuring out the WHY part of a WHAT question.  I’m so crafty.

Clearly not driving hands free, but I had to capture this sunrise on my way to school on Monday.  Perfect way to inspire my day.
Clearly not driving hands free, but I had to capture this sunrise on my way to school on Monday. Perfect way to inspire my day.

Don’t get me wrong, I have the best support group a girl could ask for (a nice mix of colleagues, friends, a blessed combination of those two, and people who aren’t teachers).  These people (my husband calls them my “fan club” – ha!) remind me on the daily that I am doing a good job and that I am the right teacher for this class, but despite all their encouragement I still doubt myself…every single day.  I seem to keep repeating this phrase, but my goodness, this job is so hard.  This is probably the messiest state my heart has been in for several years and I’m feeling the whole experience pretty intensely right now, all while trying to create community amongst my students and teach them a little bit about science and French, too.  My past few weeks have been full of tears, fervent prayers (more like desperate pleas), journal writing, “mayday” style text messages to my people, and, because I love to talk, plenty of talking (and listening).  I’ve found myself on a quest, seeking to “trust without borders”.  I’ve been wisely advised that it can be a scary and dangerous path (dangerous in a “be careful what you wish for” sense)…but I find myself asking the Universe daily to take my feet deeper than they’ve ever wandered before.  Feel welcome to interpret this as you like because I’m not even too sure what it means? My favourite song of the moment encourages keeping one’s “eyes above the waves” – to me, this means riding out the waves, the highs, the lows, and taking it one moment at a time.   This is my scattered heart as of late, and my heart is a large part of my teaching, so I felt I’d share it with you all tonight.

All philosophical thoughts aside, there have been some delightful goings on in my school life lately.  Here they are in photo form:

Working on our body systems...always in the hallway.
Working on our body systems…always in the hallway.
A little yoga practice with my class in our cafeteria. This was a lesson extension for their Social Studies India unit (I don't teach their socials, but I DID teach the yoga class).  So good!
A little yoga practice with my class in our cafeteria. This was a lesson extension for their social studies India unit (I don’t teach their socials, but I DID teach the yoga class). I had not seen my class so focused and calm until this yoga class.  So good!
This is what we've had to do lately every single morning.  Last week my car's lock was frozen shut and I had to take Joel's car to work.  Um...we live on Vancouver Island, it's not supposed to get this cold.
This is what we’ve had to do lately every single morning. Last week my car’s lock was frozen shut and I had to take Joel’s car to work. Um…we live on Vancouver Island, it’s not supposed to get this cold.
Some hilarious student signed me up for the talent show...they think it's a joke.  Bring it on, kids.
Some hilarious student signed me up for the talent show…they think it’s a joke. Bring it on, kids.
Joel and I are starting our 24 Days of Gratitude next Sunday.  I think I'm going to set one up in my classroom too...
Joel and I are starting our 24 Days of Gratitude next Sunday. I think I’m going to set one up in my classroom too…
Yes, I did take a selfie while digging in the garden.  My mom was right...my vegetable garden = my happy place.  Grateful for this sunshine we've been having!
Yes, I did take a selfie while digging in the garden. My mom was right…my vegetable garden = my happy place. When things go wrong at school, there’s always a weed to literally pull from the ground at home.  Grateful for this sunshine we’ve been having!
Franklin needed to make another blog appearance because he helped me write this post.  Not to sound like a crazy cat lady (although I know I am one), but sometimes nothing makes me happier than a snuggle with this little guy.  Joel will say, "Franklin, the lady needs a snuggle" and Franklin will come snuggle my stress away.  Aren't pets amazing?
Franklin needed to make another blog appearance because he helped me write this post. Not to sound like a crazy cat lady (although I know I am one), but sometimes after a long day at school nothing makes me happier than a snuggle with this little guy. Joel will say, “Franklin, the lady needs a snuggle”, and Franklin will come snuggle my stress away. Aren’t pets amazing?

I’ll finish this post with a little note for my support group: I just love you. And thank you, thank you, thank you.

Karley